Hello Void.

I have moved twice this year. First was in the middle of June to another building in my apartment complex - I took over the lease of a woman who was sharing a 3 bedroom apt. K and I move in, however K only stayed until her teaching gig was up and then moved to Texas. I really enjoyed my new roommates up our lease ended at the end of September so I have moved again. This time, I'm a 20 minute walk from my work, which is amazing. However, I have had a bit of a hard time with the woman I'm subletting from; she's changed her stories, the price and there has been a lot of communication problems due to the fact that her phone is broken. What makes the communication problem silly is, that she works at the same hospital as I do. Anyways - I moved in on the 26th of Sept and have been here a week now. I really do like this little apt and would love it, if the landlord could make the basement not smell like mold. And fix the smoke alarms. And the stair railing. And mount the toilet correctly. But he is on vacation so I will wait. I don't know how long I'll be staying here but it's month to month so that's pretty sweet. 

On the 29th of Sept, I received some really disappointing news. I had spent a long time saving and preparing for this thing that I wanted to do, but after waiting 5 1/2 months after turning my application, the answer was no. I was heart broken at first, and I didn't want to think that the 2 years that I've worked on this were a waste. I learned a lot - faith, repentance, enduring, and patience. I also learned that even though God has forgiven you your sin, there are still consequences here on Earth. So now I'm faced with a fork in the road; I don't know what to do with myself. I really want to live the rest of my life in Scotland, but there are so many hoops to jump through lined with red tape, it's very discouraging. The easiest way would definitely be to find a man in Scotland to marry, but I don't want all my hopes, plans and dreams to teeter on the edge of "maybe". I also have been thinking about going back to school. *gasp* I know - I couldn't even last a full 2 months of college before I was so done. I only finished out the year because my sister T11 convinced me to go because I was already getting the money. Phlebotomy has been fantastic, don't get me wrong - I love it. But being in Utah, the paying rate is ridiculously low. I've been thinking about becoming a Mortuary Beautician - hair and makeup for the dead. Cosmetology takes about 2 years, and Associates in Mortuary Science takes 2 years, while a Bachelors takes 4. I really want to do all my schooling in Scotland but I don't know if that is even allowed/doable. If anything, I'd love to move to up state New York - I'd love to be in Tarrytown NY in Autumn...I just want to experience live somewhere other than the western Rocky Mountains. I have so much to think about - I do know that I'll probably take the rest of this year to do that. With all the holidays coming up, plus the time I took off to move and my brother T6's wedding coming up this next weekend - heaven knows I need the money. But anyways - live continues and I must go forward. I'll try not to spend all my saved money in one place haha :)

Oh, btw - I turned 30 in September.