glad to help

So yesterday my friend, Ashley and I hung out. After I dropped her and her little girl off we were texting each other and she seemed to be a little sad. Then after not hearing from her I text her and then received the following "Not ok have pani c ata k on bath flor not enuf aiq c get sam" needless to say I freaked out. As soon as I got permission to take the car I was over there. Sam (her husband) opened the door and together we found her sitting on the bathroom floor wrapped in a towel, shaking. After a few minutes like this I called my dad and had him and my brother Tyler come over and give her a blessing because she doesn't know her home teachers are. We helped her up and then I helped her get dressed and by the time that was done my dad & Tyler were there. The results were almost immediate. She started to come around and asked for a paper & pen to write to us that she needed to cook Sam something to eat. I said that I'd do it - to which she objected but I insisted. While I was cooking she came out of the bedroom (we'd put her to bed) and whispered to Sam that when I was done she wanted to talk to me. So I went into her room and we sat on the bed and talked FOR HOURS! It really was great. I'm so glad that I kind of knew how to react in this kind of situations because of my handicap sister Trenna and also my oldest sister Trudi is claustrophobic. Needless to say I didn't get home until like 1:55 am and then mom came out and I explained to her what had happened so I didn't get to bed until like 2:30.

THEN I was asked by my favorite supervisor to write a statement about the crappy way she is treated at work. I'm honored to do anything I can to help her because she is truly a one of a kind person and she is AWESOME!!!

fun day

so I'm yet again spending the weekend with my parents...after being on the computer for a bit I got off and said "ok bathroom time for me and I'm taking this with me" as I grabed my duffle bag (on my way to shower). My sister Trayci looks up at me with her eyebrows raised and asks "you coming back?" lol nice. Then I spent HOURS with Ashley and we had a BLAST!!! lol so much fun! loved loved loved it! WE NEED TO DO THIS MORE! Plus the fact that I dont get out much so I was CRAZY lol but Ashley shares in my craziness lol. but yeah its late and i gotta wake up early in the morning for Church so this is all I shall write besides...."I'm looking for Ray Finkle....and a clean pair of underpants." LOL hearts

No More, Now, Someday

No more -
no more will I feel his arms around me.
No more will our lips hover over each other
sending chills and thrills through me.
No more will I look up into his face
and see the beauty hidden there.
No more will our fingers intertwine.
No more will my fingers trace his skin,
finding the softest spots
or the strange curves or the outline of his tattoo.
No more will my phone connect me to him.
No more will I hear him say "I love you".
No more will I plan my life with him.

Now -
now my heart stumbles
at everything that reminds me of him.
Now I cry at the drop of a hat.
Now I hate that I still love him.
Now I hate that I want him back.
Now I hate that I dont.
Now I feel reduced back to nothing.
Now I feel less than I was.
Now I have a hard time watching movies or
listening to music without remembering him
or thinking of my current state.
Now I have to find out who I am
and what I really want.
Now I leave behind the life
I had waited my whole life to have.

Someday -
someday I will get over him.
Someday I will move on.
Someday I will be able to think about him
and not have my heart hurt.
Someday I won't cry over him.
Someday life wont remind me of him.
Someday another will find me.
Someday I will have everything I ever wanted.
Someday I will be free of this heartache.
Someday I will be happy again.

on my own

ok so to start out I think I'll give ya a brief fyi. I'm 24, LDS, single and I work on the Air Force Base though I'm not in the Air Force. I live with my friend and her husband and their two beautiful children who are my god kids. As for anything else you'll just have to keep reading as I post.


Work was crazy today - we had a rush 10 minutes before closing and they were all from England. My shoulders are so sore from this job its not even funny! I need to find someone who'll gently coax the knots out. I've had these knots for weeks now. Also I've been sick since Christmas - SO not cool. It just seems to stick around.

Its been raining here in Vegas for a few days now, which is unusal. But I love it! As long as I dont have to walk in it with my arms full of stuff which I had to do today. NOT FUN!

Last night my self standing closet collapsed, no way of fixing it because it cracked the plastic. So I took it back today and got one that was 3 times as expencive. *sigh* I'll be putting it up tomorrow.

Ok I think thats good for now. Leave comments or not. Which ever, dont care right now. too tired.