its becoming too much (warning: langage)

OK so Thursday night was super fun; goofed around with Ashley and Johnny. Laughed so hard after running that I started to gag.

But on a more serious note - the knots in my shoulders from working at Charley's have gotten so bad and so big that they are messing with the nerves to my hands. My right hand seems to be affected most - if I pick something heavy up or use it with pressure aka writing I get a tingly sharp numb feeling in it. but its actually gotten worse; this morning just holding the fork at breakfast, my hand was going numb. Then as I walked to work I was on my cell with my little sister and just holding the phone to my ear my hand was going numb. BUT what is even better is that my left hand is showing signs as well. I have woken up in the middle of the night with my hand painfully numb from just laying on my side, doesn't matter which side. I need to get a message and see a chiropractor.

THEN at work a certain Chief Helms is coming...I don't know who he is but apparently he's big stuff because the whole food court is in an up roar. This just makes me roll my eyes. I really don't give a rats ass about all this bull shit. One of these days I'm gonna take a piece of ham with my bare hand and shove it into my mouth in front of cameras AND the managers I hate and say "You've got a HUGE stick up your ass!! You treat your best employees like shit and you run this place like Nazis. And to you and yours I say PISS OFF!"

Then today my sister Trayci and I took our pets, her cat Gulliver and my dog Biggles to The Lieds Animal Control Center and paid a total of $20.00 to have them put to sleep. I cried almost from the moment I got in the house to the moment I got back. I made a frame from clay and put his paw prints in it. Then mom held him as I clipped his nails, he was pretty good for the whole ordeal, at which point I began to cry. Then I gave him a bath and dried him off. He was running around all happy and I began to cry again. Then when I pulled out the leash he got all excited, I felt HORRIBLE! I walked him about 2 houses down and across and back while I waited for Trayci to come out with Gulliver. I opened the back door and he hopped in and then I put Gulliver next to him on the seat. And he STAYED there! The WHOLE way! He has NEVER done that. EVER! He was always from window to window to front to back to window to window and back again. But he was such a good dog. I cried some more. I don't know what to do with his brush or his bedding or the leashes ... I put his collar on the frame along with a tag that I made. I wish I knew where his original tag was... They said that he most likely had cancer because of the lump on his chest and the lumps on his muzzle. And he was going blind and deaf and I'm pretty sure he had arthritis and he stank so bad. I don't even know how old he was. We got him as a stray in 1997. 13 years. I miss him already. I don't know if I ever want to get a pet again.

just watch lol

I WANNA SEE IT SO BAD!!!

SOOOO EXCITED!!!

NEED I SAY MORE?!

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i need to find something in my everyday life that i can be like "yeah, this is mine. I bought it or its freakin awesome ..." i dont know it just feels like im lacking something fun wise you know? I need a lot of computer time with photoshop and a printer... got plans for my old girls camp sweater :D i'm totally rambling but isnt that what blogs are for? oh hey if anyone is reading this check out this blog: thesleeptalkinman...very funny but not intended for children or faint of heart

yet again

so i was sick since before christmas and i JUST got better last week and guess what!? I babysat my nephews and im sick YET AGAIN! UGH! I hate being sick!!!

Rainy Days

It's raining today - I distinctly remember waking in the early morning (i know it was early morning because I didn't go to bed until 3:40 :}) and hearing the rain beat out its heartbeat on the roof. I do love the rain and I think it's pretty amazing that it's been raining so much here in Vegas. I think this is the thrid week it's rained. Pretty amazing really. Love it :D just wish I had brought an umbrella with me for my weekend stay at mom and dad's.

trouble sleeping

soooo....I don't have a bed. Just a full bed frame and a twin size air mattress where the bed should be...sometimes I sleep on the couch. But sleeping on the air mattress really sucks because if it's not too hard then it's too soft and I get really weird cold sweats...don't know what that's all about. I NEED TO FIND A FULL SIZE MATTRESS AND BOX SPRING FOR CHEAP!!!!! UGH!! If you can help that'd be AWESOME!

another 4 letter word

SO! as many as you know I finally have a job after almost 2 years of unemployment {and looking back on it now I was stupid not to get unemployment pay}. The main reason I took this job was because out of all the applications I turned in they were the only ones that called me back after the interview stage. Anyways its called Charley's Grilled Subs and its in the BX (Base Exchange)and its on the Nellis Air Force Base. I currently live on Base with my friend since High School; Teresa, her husband Chris and their two beautiful and adorable children(who are my god-children), Azura and Korbin. I was hired about a week before Christmas as intermittent which is less than part-time but more than seasonal. It's the highest paying job I've ever had but because my hours are crazy it's not panning out as well as I'd first thought. But then again, I HATE working in the food biz and it gets CRAZY busy there so I'm actually very glad that I'm not working as much. I had my first 8 hour day on Monday...not cool. I walk to and from work but that day it was more of a walk to work, limp home. Since starting I've had huge knots in my shoulders and my feet are getting more and more sore. Yes, I know that I shouldn't be complaining and that I should be thankful for the job that I have. And I am, but that also gives me the right to complain about it. I really don't see myself working there past summer...it's just not meant for me or my sanity. The whole "YOU CAN SPREAD DISEASE!!!!" crap bugs the HELL outta me. In my opinion that's why everyone is so sick! They're too scared to get sick so they take all of these precautions and that's why they're sick! Their immune system SUCKS! COME ON!! Rub some dirt in it! Build your immune system! GEEZ! *rolls eyes* yeah that's why I hate the food biz...can't stand it. That and shopping carts...so I'm screwed. UGH I hate working. I need a sugar daddy that doesn't want anything in return but attention. lol I'm crazy - I know.